Monday, October 15, 1832
1832
October
Monday 15
6
10/..
1
Washing and
mending my stays till eight
Fine
morning, F 57 1/2° at 6 1/2 a.m. –
Busy
over 1 thing or other – Had Cordingley
helping to take trimming off old French
silk petticoat.
Breakfast
with my aunt at 10 1/2 –
Miss
Walker came in 5 or 6 minutes – Off with her at 11 – Shopped – Sat in the
carriage while Miss W- called on Mr. Hudson at Ward’s End –
Mr.
Edwards came to the carriage door to ask me to vote (from the Northgate property)
in favor of I forgot whom, against the radical candidate Rawsden for the
constableship – The town in a bustle – voting at the Waterhouse’s Arms – The poll
to close at 5 p.m. – I had heard, nor knew anything about it – Mr. Edwards had
just voted in right of his executorship to the late but one Mr. Walker of Crow
Nest – Odd enough to say this before his daughter sitting by me, who afterwards
observed that she was now the 2nd in succession to that property –
Went
to Throp’s – then got out at the Trimming and had walked very near to Haugh End
before Miss W- overtook me after her call at Willowfield – The H. Priestleys
not at home –
Then
drove to Thorpe – We both had business with Mr. John Priestley and sat 1/2 hour
– I inquiring what he meant to do about the level gained in the brook to Walterclough
Mill – He should have £5 a year – Then sat 20 minutes at Mill house with Mrs. W. H. Rawson – All the rest out –
Then
called at a shop or 2 and at Lidgate at 5 1/4 – Dinner at 6 – Very cozy evening.
Miss W- read prayers and we went upstairs
at 10 1/4 – Fine day –
I undressed in
half hour and then went to her room. Had
her on my knee a few minutes and then got into bed, she making no objection,
and staid with her till twelve and three quarters grubbling gently, right middle finger up almost all the time
– made two or three attempts to get my self quite near her, but somehow
could not manage it, and she seemed so tender and able to bear so little (I
think she was more intact and innocent and
virgin than I had latterly surmised), that I contented myself with handling her
gently and lovemaking. She feared she should
never be able to satisfy me. On leaving
her, my night things so wet, obliged to take them off and sleep in my
dressing gown. She whispered to me in
bed how gentle and kind I was to her, and faintly said she loved me, or
else how can you think, said she, that I should let you do as you do. In fact, tho I never allow that I have hope,
surely I ought not to despair. She
cannot surely go on as she does, meaning to say no. Nothing passes that is not encouraging –
Letter
this morning (just read it before setting off) 2 2/3 pages widely written from Mariana
(Lawton) – quite well – Delighted to
be at home – Very busy – Company leaving and ditto expected The Ackers, among the rest – Thinks I ought
to write to Miss Smith my determination not to take her as Lady’s maid. Must not expect attachment from any one of them
unless more like a friend to me than a servant –
WYAS Finding Number SH:7/ML/E/15/0132
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