Saturday, October 13, 1832
1832
October
Saturday 13
6 10/..
12 20/..
Wild, windy, wet morning – F 59° at
6 1/2 a.m. –
Wrote copy of letter asking Eugénie’s character –
Breakfast at 8 1/4 with my father –
Staid down talking about the road thro’ Trough of Bolland Wood, etc. etc., my
father taking it all now with composure, and really seeming not even the least annoyed
about it at heart – Just saw my aunt for a minute – Read my father his letter
from Marian to say she would be back between 6 and 7 this evening, and came to
my room at 9 40/..
– Wrote 1 page to ‘The Honorable
Mrs. Herbert, 84 London Road, Brighton’ and left this letter and my letter
written yesterday to ‘The Honorable Lady Stuart, Richmond Park, Surrey’ on
my desk ready for the post tonight, for fear I should not happen to be at home
before 6 p.m. when John goes for my sister –
Out at 10 20/.. – Went down to the
hut – Found Pickles and Dick there moving earth from the back of it – Went with
Pickles to see the line of road he had traced out in Trough of Bolland Wood – Will
do very well – Told him to cut out a track I could get along easily, so that I
might see my way before and consider of it – Then back to the hut and stood over
them till 1 –
Then home – Changed my pelisse, etc. A little while with my aunt., and off again
at 1 3/4 –
A few minutes at the hut and at Lidgate
at 2 25/.. – Found Mrs. Dyson of Willowfield and her friends, Mrs. and Miss
Salmon (late of Sandback) calling there – Very civil to them during the 10 minutes
or 1/4 hour –
Then sat cozing with Miss Walker very
comfortably – She, however, not well, and lay on the sofa – Expressed my wish
she should have Dr. Belcombe’s advice, to which she at last consented, and we
are to go over to York together for this purpose –
Had a beef steak at 6 1/2 and afterwards
tea – John came late on account of having waited in vain for my sister from Market
Weighton –
Home in 1/2 hour at 10 25/.. – Found Marian arrived 1/2 hour ago – Had come by the Wakefield coach – Just wished her and my father good night – Talked a little to my aunt (poorly tonight) and came to my room at 10 40/.. –
Talked to Miss W first of her business matters, and then quite
as if we were really to travel together.
Mentioned Mrs. Norcliffe’s asking me to Bath, and Miss W looked with
a long face on my talking of going. In fact, it is plain she likes me. She said what confidence she felt in [me] and
that she already felt attached to me. I talked of the continent in a style of
observation amusing and rather exciting.
She lay down, and I leaned over her, kissing her as usual. After tea, got more affectionate, but on
gently putting my hand up her petticoats, she whispered, don’t, and I
desisted. She said I do not know how
she had suffered from it the other night; had not got the better of it yet. She was very tender there. I talked soothingly and affectionately; said
how gentle I would be.
Expressed my anxiety for her health, and she said she
would go with me to York this month. She
always sleeps with Catherine Rawson, goes to her. I joked and wanted her to come to me on
Monday. No, not then, it would not do. It would
be better when we went to York to sleep at Tadcaster going and returning. Oh oh, thought I, then we must get off. I must get my ordeal over, and let her try
me and see whether I can make her happy enough or not. She has really seemed better, or more nicely
conducted, tonight than of late, and her affectionate manner did make me feel
in love with her. I said I only
wished she had but a third of what she had and no Cliff Hill, and then we might
have managed all without difficulty. Oh
no, said she, the difficulty would have been far greater. I could not comprehend this. I will
perhaps explain it, said she, by and by –
I told her my uncle and aunt together had given me more than
five
hundred pounds one year, and my Uncle Joseph had once paid my debts, but if I
had not been as I was, perhaps neither I nor Marian would have had the estate. Mentioned having Cordingley with me in Paris,
but did not say where we were. Told some
of the queer stories, and said I had always been too great a pickle, but was quite
different now –
She is more than half in love with me already?
Rainy morning till after 9 – then
fine till about 3 or after, when hail shower –gleams and showers afterwards, but
very fine moonlight evening. F 58° now at 11 20/.. p.m., having just written
all but the first 7 1/2 lines of today –
WYAS
Finding Number SH:7/ML/E/15/0132
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