Sunday, February 10, 1833

1833

February

Sunday 10

8 1/4

12 1/2

Both very quiet last night. She jumped up and ran away twenty minutes before me this morning, saying afterwards that she felt that if she had staid she should never get away.  

Soft, damp, rainy morning – Downstairs to breakfast at 9 50/.., having been 3/4 hour in Miss Walker’s room.

Mentioned having heard two or three times from Mr. Ainsworth without naming it to her.  Said he wanted seven tenths of the fifty pounds back, but I had told him I had not [thought] it right to name his letter to Miss W.   She said she wished I had not mentioned him, as she had not thought of him lately and she only got more bewildered, and I promised to say no more about him.  On asking whether I should name him to Captain Sutherland, she said decidedly, no, she had rather not –

Miss Rawson read the lessons and Miss W- and I (she clerk and I parson) the rest of the morning service.   Staid to keep her from going to church, both morning and afternoon.  She very low all the day –

Mr. Wilkinson came to dinner at 1 – Sat down with them but did not take anything – Prayers in the afternoon as in the morning –

Should have returned home to dinner, but too rainy, and windy, and stormy – Dinner before 6, and tea immediately afterwards – All doing a little botany – Miss W- much better this evening – Miss R-’s and my philosophical conversation on religion had done her good – Miss R and I agreed we doubted the doctrine of everlasting torment in hellfire –

Came upstairs at 11 1/4 – and to my room at 11 1/2 – rainy day, and rainy, windy, stormy, boisterous evening and night –

WYAS Finding Number SH:7/ML/E/16/0016